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"You are a health conscious person, both your health and the health of others. You know all about the health benefits and dangers of the world around you."

Well we are adding an new addition to our home this week. Her name is Amya and she is a doll!! We are watching her while her mother is in jail.( this is Emma's birth sister)

Most people think we are crazy taking her for six months with the option of giving her back. but think about it. if this was your daughter and you had messed up wouldn't you want a chance to make it right? If someone took one of my baby's I would go crazy.

Of course having two 20 month old babies in the house is going to be work hehe. I already have great empathy for parents with twins hehe. But she is adjusting well already. Her and my foster baby trenton are a day apart!! so they really are like twins...and they are getting along together very well. And of course getting into lots of trouble together too hehe.

Emma is dealing well with it, I don't really think she understands this is her real sister, but she she calls her her sister.

So I hope i survive the next six months....heh... But these kids are worth it...:)

On the lighter side ;)

Ok everyone should love this.... and its true:)

My DH cousins live in Canada, one has a 16 year old daughter. Last week she was taking care of a friends dog while they were out of town. she would ride a bus accross town, feed the dog and play with it for awhile. well one day she went over and she couldn't find the dog anywhere. She finally walked down stairs and found the dog dead( of old age).

Well she didn't want to leave the body there (and being 16 and very resoursefull) she decided to put the dead body into a suitcase to take home on the bus with her. As she was sitting on the bus a man started talking to her...finally he asked what was in the suitcase. not wanting to say a dead dog, she said electronics.

Well she got off at her stop and noticed the man also got off, she didn't think anything of it and started walking home. suddenly the man ran up behind her, grabbed the suitcase and ran off!!

He thought he had grabbed a bag of electronics!! how i would have loved to see his face when he opened it up and there was dead dog hehee.

I thought this was so funny!! and poor girl she was more worried that she didn't have the body of the dog than about being robbed...heh :)

Pissy week

ok well its been one of those weeks I am so honery i can't stand myself. I cant imagine what my kids think..sigh. Im just tired i guess, and everything annoys me, including myself LOL.

my computer is driving me nuts. I had my brother in law build me one a few years ago, and he put a copied version of windows on. now nothing works. I can't even read emails with clips in it cause its so messed up. so i called him to ask him if he could help me so i could get help and he tells me 'well your just going to have to put a real copy of windows in like everyone else' I looked at him in amazement. he was the one that put the copy on not me. i would have paid for a real version...sigh..now i can't cause i don't have the money.


And thats the other thing bothering me right now. we have never had alot of money but enough to pay our bills, but since nate started his new job last year we have had so much less...plus more bills because of my medical bills. and its like this cycle. if i could get a credit card to pay off some of the medical bills we would be ok, but the medical bills have messed up our credit and so now we cant get any help, and we still can't pay all the thousands of dollars of bills ...its so messed up, its something you can't get out of. I can't work cause i can't afford to pay a babysitter for 3 kids, my husband is already working 50+ hrs a week, he doens't have time to take on a part time job....I HATE MONEY...I hate that you have to have it to survive, i hate that it causes so much stress, I hate that i can't get enough to sustain my family, and i hate that everything in my house is breaking or broke and i can't do anything to fix it.

well there is my rant....i guess its not much to read. but oh well....ill try again next time when im not in such a pissy mood. :(

Bad Hair month!!

Haha this month has been a crazy hair month....so im posting here for everyone to know ...DONT TRY THIS AT HOME!! hehe

its started out that i couldn't afford to go have my hair colored by my regular stylist..so i thought i ll just put a rinse in and be fine till next month. well the color was suppose to be light blonde. its went more like platinum blond err. so i decided i already hate my hair so why not go dark like i have always wanted...so i put a black color in

1st warning...never change your hair from blond to black, unless u want to stay there as its easier to go darker but not easier to go lighter from black hehe

so i loved the black, it was way different and fun, but i realized that upkeep was going to be hard, and the hair color after few days wasn't as pretty or glossy as at first. so i though i would just go to a dark brown. heh. well u can't do this, i found out, because black will not got to brown like brown to black!!

So i researched how to get rid of black hair, i was too embarrassed to go to my regular sytlist so i decided to remove it myself

2nd warning....everyones hair does not respond the same to hair removers!! the best way to remove color...go to a sylist who does lots of hari cloring hehe

I followed the directions to the letter....my hair turned the orange/red the directions said it would and i was ready to put the next color on.....a dark brown.....

needless to say this didn't happen. because the hair remover burnt my scalp and hair, so my hair didn't pick up all the color, it went to a mousy medium red brown...i was horrified. i trimmed all my edges and went to a cheap hair color place to trim of the burnt(only cause it was 8 pm at night and no sylists were open.

she recommened putting a semi-perm color on in mean time

3rd warning ...after putting light to dark to no color to dark...your hair will open up and accept all color as permanent color!! therefore semi will not be semi...but permanant

i put a black rinse in and next day went to a salon(broke down cause i needed a good haircut) this stylist told me that my hair would not be ready to accept any color for a couple months while it repaired itself..and also told me that the semi perm..would take as a permanant....and told me next time come in and they have removers they test on your hair before doing to see how they respond......sigh....

I did end up with a ok haircut...but my hair is about 2 inches shorter and my scalp has tiny little scabs all over it. i still have the black color which i will wear for as long as i can stand before trying to remove and restore my regular color......

the moral of the story is if u want to go an extreme color, always go semi-perm, or have a professional do it....it will save you money in the long run.....

my cheap dye ended costing me over 85 dollars, broken hair, and a sore scalp. plus hair dresser said it would probably grow back white or grey....because of the damage....sigh.....learn from my mistakes please!!! Natasha

Hi melissa!!

Hi im here...how are u? are u fine? look im writing on my blog just for you:)

a little bit of kids...

More of my little squirts...they are growing up so fast!! Wade will be seven in sept.....How can I have a seven year old? he is boss 2. of course with dad gone alot he thinks thats his job.... hehe
















Emma is 2 1/2...well that says it all doesn't it hehe....she is going to be a beautiful girl...and very stubborn, did I say she was stubborn!!










and Trenton our little foster boy is coming alive. learning what foods he likes, trying to learn that no means NO hehe.










foster care this time around has definatly been easier emotionally. I have found how to love him without exactly attaching myself to him as "MINE" . we have no idea what is happening with mom and dad...they are still sitting in jail as far as I know...there is talk of removing mom's rights...but not sure about dad's yet. I would love to adopt him...but I also know he might still go home as well...
I sure so love these guys....as much as they make me crazy...I wouldn't know what to do without them!!

20 lb's gone

Yeah...20 pounds gone forever :) I really had lost hope that I would start losing...now I can't wait....hehe I get so impatient and get all my clothes out and can't wait till I can get into them...

even though I have a long way to go its nice to know that i can do it....and that eventually I will lose this weight and be healthy again!!
plus my sugar levels have stabalized so I am not shaky, and I don't crave sugar anymore!! yeah...its so great....

now 60 more pounds to go LOL hehe :)

Tired.......

I am so tired today.....that deep bone tired that drags you to the floor!! I am tired of struggling with bills, and not seeing my husband because he is working 60+ hours. I am tired of not being able to have the energy to do my house work, or play with my kids.....its that deep emotional tired that you have a hard time shaking.

A year ago this month is the month I got sick...in aug 05 they found my pre cancerous condition and then started the hardest 6 months of my life.....4 surgeries(and 75lbs) later you would think I would be starting to get better. and then they told me I have epstein barr virus...which doesn't go away...it stays with you and flares up all the time!! they told me to avoid stress...Oh okay...I will just wrap myself in my little cocoon and be happy....LOl because it is so easy to avoid stress with three kids and a working husband and hospital bills and such........

Ok I am overly negative today...I should probably call it quits....and try again tomorrow

only good thing is the weight is starting to SLOWLY come off....:) I should try and focus on that ..........

what kind of shoe am I?

You are Barefoot!

You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl You can't be restricted by shoes for very long And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

My children...My joy!

These are two of my reasons for living. everyday I look at these two beautifull faces and know I have a reason to continue.

Wade is 6 years old and as smart as a wip, top of his kindergarted class reading at a second grade level...He never stops talking LOL always asking question after question....his mind is never at a stop :)

Emma is 2 and beautiful. she came into our life as a foster child at 10 months, and then became our daughter. she is stubborn, thoughtfull and full of life. she came from a rough start and has over come much!!

together they are rascals, but I love them dearly!


This is our new foster baby...Trenton. he is 13 months . what a joyfull, curious boy he is. full of smiles and talking. we have had him for 2 weeks, and he already feels like part of the family. We don't know how long he will be in our lives, but we hope what time we have with him, will fill him with love and peace!