Pissy week

ok well its been one of those weeks I am so honery i can't stand myself. I cant imagine what my kids think..sigh. Im just tired i guess, and everything annoys me, including myself LOL.

my computer is driving me nuts. I had my brother in law build me one a few years ago, and he put a copied version of windows on. now nothing works. I can't even read emails with clips in it cause its so messed up. so i called him to ask him if he could help me so i could get help and he tells me 'well your just going to have to put a real copy of windows in like everyone else' I looked at him in amazement. he was the one that put the copy on not me. i would have paid for a real version...sigh..now i can't cause i don't have the money.


And thats the other thing bothering me right now. we have never had alot of money but enough to pay our bills, but since nate started his new job last year we have had so much less...plus more bills because of my medical bills. and its like this cycle. if i could get a credit card to pay off some of the medical bills we would be ok, but the medical bills have messed up our credit and so now we cant get any help, and we still can't pay all the thousands of dollars of bills ...its so messed up, its something you can't get out of. I can't work cause i can't afford to pay a babysitter for 3 kids, my husband is already working 50+ hrs a week, he doens't have time to take on a part time job....I HATE MONEY...I hate that you have to have it to survive, i hate that it causes so much stress, I hate that i can't get enough to sustain my family, and i hate that everything in my house is breaking or broke and i can't do anything to fix it.

well there is my rant....i guess its not much to read. but oh well....ill try again next time when im not in such a pissy mood. :(