weekend in casper

This weekend Nate got 1/2 of saturday off, sunday off. so we took a trip to the big ole town of casper wy. mostly because nate needed work clothes. but we took the kids to a fun restruant called Sanfords. And it was alot of fun...decorated in anything u could think of the food had a cajun flavor to it and was delicious. we ended the night swimming in a hotel and sleeping in real beds!! how lovely lol. the kids had a blast and it felt like a mini vacation!! I feel like we made the right decision coming out here. yes we have sacrificed alot, yet we are growing together in ways we never would have before. now about that bigger trailer lol..still holding out for the one with a master bedroom hehe.

pumkin patch

Nate got off early on sunday , came home and told the kids we were heading to the local pumkin patch. So we loaded up in the truck and headed out. what fun!! they had pumkins all over, different colors and kinds. It was a blast and a great treat for the kids. We loved spending some rare time with daddy, and getting to explore the pumking patch as we went. since were in a little trailer we decided carving pumking were out and were going to paint them instead lol. so thats todays project. ill post the results.

the kids are doing really well as is nate. we really enjoy being here with him..even if we only get him a couple hours every night. We love supporting him and helping him. this is our families togetherness...and i think it will bring us closer in the years to come. now it doesnt stop me from dreaming of a bigger trailer with a master bedroom lol....sigh i can dream cant I?

worst part of living in a trailer

The worst part of living in a 22ft camper trailer? when one of your kids get sick. yes emma.. you guessed it. lol . my girl that cant hold anything down if her stomach is a little ill...10 times ..sigh. yes that makes a little 22ft camper stink to high heaven!!

yes i felt bad, and and all that..but its hard to remeber that while trying to clean out throw up..from the floor and a bucket we luckily found...its not like u can just flush it down the toilet...sigh...ya i wont go into details.

Anyway. she is doing better luckily after im sure getting every bit out. Wade started school up here in riverton, wy yesterday...went well..except today the bus didnt stop where it said it would lol. so luckily a neighbor who drives her kids in to a nearby school offered to take him in so i could stay home with emma

Nate said the next area he thinks hes going to is kemmer. not sure what to think about that.lol. my mom used to teach there once a week, so i know it a little bit...my dad says its cold there..lol im finding wyoming is cold everywhere....and the wind? its crazy. my nails are splitting and bleeding no matter how much lotion i put on lol. so i keep reminding myself i really do love my husband...hehe.

meanwhile holly calls and tells me its cold cause she only reached 65 today...lol i want to shoot her...love ya holly....cause i think its finally warm cause its up to 4o hehe...

amyway were doing ok...surviving together...and im sure well remeber this little adventure for years to come lol. thanks all for your support and i miss all you guys!!

made a choice

Well after coming home and leaving nate. the family tried to get back to normal. but i just had this very ominous feeling i needed to be with nate. at first i thought it was just i didnt want to be alone without him. but ive done that before..ive left him for 3 weeks and was fine. the next morning wade came down sick and we sat on the bed and had a family discussion. the only reason werent following nate was wade's school..so i told him id let him decide...did he want to stay in his new school, or go be with dad. we talked about the pros and cons...and i really didnt pressure him at all. and he kept saying..mom i want to be with dad. i guess the week i was gone he had a very bad time in school...to the points i got a call because of his behavior..we are such a close family i know this has effected us all. so I said ok..lets do it..and we started to plan it, packing and going to go the next day to riverton. well then we found out about the incoming storm and decided the next day was going to have to be today lol. and we jetted to wy as fast as we could.

needless to say we scared nate to death lol and he didnt know what to think. but all that was put aside as we redied the trailer for the storm. well it didnt work..our heat tape failed and our water froze lol. but we weathered the worst storm theyve had all year lol. on sunday nate sat and gave all the kids blessings, in wades he told them that he would be blessed educationally because of his choice to be with his family over school. i had tears in my eyes when i heard this...what a blessing!! then he gave emma one and me one. In mine he told me that i would have the strength to see this family through this and keep us together and that i would also be blessed for my choice. what a reassruance that following the spirit is the right thing to do. i know this wont be easy..lol especially being crammed in this little trailer. but i know we will be blessed for our desire to be together as a family. nate is sacrificing for this family and in our way we can do the same to better the life of our family. i know we will all be blessed for our sacrifice. and that in the long run this will be our family closer together!!

I am so gratefull to have the gospel to be able to tell me what i need to do..for that small whispering guiding me in making the right choices. and though the road ahead is full of questions and unkowns..i know we will be together as a family and we will get through it :) love ya all. thanks for all your support. i will keep u updated about where we go next and whats happening.

single parenthood

Well I left my beloved husband in wyoming today. with heavy heart, i sent him off to work, cleaned the trailer a little so he could come home and make food and talk with the kids. and drove the 5 1/2 hrs to corinne. I walked into my house, and sighed. all my energy left me. can i do this? how do people do this? i know this is just till dec..and yet i want to break down crying. can i handle being a single mom till then..knowing there is no one to lean and and support me? no one to snuggle up to at night and hold me and tell me its ok? I have never felt so alone :(

I didnt realize how much just seeing him everynight meant to me. its like the absense of him hangs heavily in the air. like the whole house is sad because he is gone. And here i am going to try and maintain an order of peace and happiness while my heart is broken...as i left half of it in wyoming with him. i pray he is safe. and that he feels the love i have for him tonight. i pray he knows he means the world to me and that me and the kids feel a big loss without him. yet we know he is doing this for us. to help us survive. i love you nathan david d'hulst. forever your baby natasha

what a difference a day makes!

Woke up monday morning with a list of projects a mile long . who would have figured by monday night id be on a road to riverton wy. lol we got the call at 8pm wed night. if nate could make it to riverton wy by 7am the following morning he might have a job....enphasis on might!! As soon as i got the call i scrambled around to find babysitters, and figure out what do with myself and kids for a week lol. so emma went to grandma ovards, Wade went to nates' sisters house. and i drove nate to wy( so he could sleep if he ended up working a 12 hour day!!) so now im sitting here in a friends trailer ( were sleeping in the back of the van lol) wondering how i came here and how my life is going to change dramatically. We are coming home saturday or sunday to pick up a trailer for nathan to live in. then he is heading back. who knows when i will see him again.

im sad scared excited all in a nutshell. the pay is good so i cant complain about that. but i hate for us to be split up even though i knew this might be coming. im toying with the idea that as soon as he takes his second assignment in november we might pack up and join him. who knows...i hate to move the kids from there schools..especially wade. but at the same time..we are a family and all of us love spending time with each other and i dont know how good we would do apart..sigh. desicions. im wondering know if this is a sign that my texas plans are too fast. i know without a doubt that we are going there..but im wondering if my time and god's time are 2 different things lol .

Well i know it will all pan out in the end and i need to just be patient and let heavenly father do his thing lol. but wow..who would have known a week ago this is where id be!! silly me...borin sounds so good right now lol..nice boring life. :)