Hi melissa!!

Hi im here...how are u? are u fine? look im writing on my blog just for you:)

a little bit of kids...

More of my little squirts...they are growing up so fast!! Wade will be seven in sept.....How can I have a seven year old? he is boss 2. of course with dad gone alot he thinks thats his job.... hehe
















Emma is 2 1/2...well that says it all doesn't it hehe....she is going to be a beautiful girl...and very stubborn, did I say she was stubborn!!










and Trenton our little foster boy is coming alive. learning what foods he likes, trying to learn that no means NO hehe.










foster care this time around has definatly been easier emotionally. I have found how to love him without exactly attaching myself to him as "MINE" . we have no idea what is happening with mom and dad...they are still sitting in jail as far as I know...there is talk of removing mom's rights...but not sure about dad's yet. I would love to adopt him...but I also know he might still go home as well...
I sure so love these guys....as much as they make me crazy...I wouldn't know what to do without them!!

20 lb's gone

Yeah...20 pounds gone forever :) I really had lost hope that I would start losing...now I can't wait....hehe I get so impatient and get all my clothes out and can't wait till I can get into them...

even though I have a long way to go its nice to know that i can do it....and that eventually I will lose this weight and be healthy again!!
plus my sugar levels have stabalized so I am not shaky, and I don't crave sugar anymore!! yeah...its so great....

now 60 more pounds to go LOL hehe :)

Tired.......

I am so tired today.....that deep bone tired that drags you to the floor!! I am tired of struggling with bills, and not seeing my husband because he is working 60+ hours. I am tired of not being able to have the energy to do my house work, or play with my kids.....its that deep emotional tired that you have a hard time shaking.

A year ago this month is the month I got sick...in aug 05 they found my pre cancerous condition and then started the hardest 6 months of my life.....4 surgeries(and 75lbs) later you would think I would be starting to get better. and then they told me I have epstein barr virus...which doesn't go away...it stays with you and flares up all the time!! they told me to avoid stress...Oh okay...I will just wrap myself in my little cocoon and be happy....LOl because it is so easy to avoid stress with three kids and a working husband and hospital bills and such........

Ok I am overly negative today...I should probably call it quits....and try again tomorrow

only good thing is the weight is starting to SLOWLY come off....:) I should try and focus on that ..........

what kind of shoe am I?

You are Barefoot!

You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl You can't be restricted by shoes for very long And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

My children...My joy!

These are two of my reasons for living. everyday I look at these two beautifull faces and know I have a reason to continue.

Wade is 6 years old and as smart as a wip, top of his kindergarted class reading at a second grade level...He never stops talking LOL always asking question after question....his mind is never at a stop :)

Emma is 2 and beautiful. she came into our life as a foster child at 10 months, and then became our daughter. she is stubborn, thoughtfull and full of life. she came from a rough start and has over come much!!

together they are rascals, but I love them dearly!


This is our new foster baby...Trenton. he is 13 months . what a joyfull, curious boy he is. full of smiles and talking. we have had him for 2 weeks, and he already feels like part of the family. We don't know how long he will be in our lives, but we hope what time we have with him, will fill him with love and peace!