Live..Laugh...Love

HANNIBAL

2009-09-29T06:47:00.000-07:00

We had an amazing trip to hannibal, mo this week. we decided to go visit the mark twain museum, and we wanted to do the site river tour, but the last one left before we called.. but they did have a 2 hr dinner cruise... we hummed and hawed (pricey thing!) and thought u know what this is once in lifetime opportunity. so we did it.. and im so glad it was a blast!! i mean a real blast! wade decided he loved mark twain and wants to read the books.. so we got him one.

there is nothing like eating dinner, listening to jazz music and watching the sunset on the mississippi!! it was beautiful! and so big.. us utahns just dont get a big river..lol it blows us away!! it was definatly a night we will never forget! nate even asked me to dance!! wow hehe

school day :)

2009-09-19T14:56:00.000-07:00

kids started school here aug. 18th. they have really liked it. they both got young great teachers and are meeting lots of new friends.. i am of course enjoying my free days again with lots of jewelry, and mommy pampering time lol.. ok not really but hey im trying here :)

troy, mo

2009-09-19T14:50:00.000-07:00

i know its been awhile.. caught up in facebook ..lol so you can always go there for the latest.. :)

we have been enjoying missouri, the ward has been lovely, and welcoming. the kids have loved it meeting lots of friends.

The sites here are really pretty, lots of greenery. now the humitidy on the other hand is awful ..lol i though texas would prepare me for it.. but it didnt lol. its awful. on the other hand the fireflies all but make up for it ;)

last day of school :)

2009-06-06T19:11:00.000-07:00

We survived a crazy year of school lol.... Wade was such a trooper changing school as much as he did this year. He even made the A-B Honor roll for 2 semesters, and got a honorable mention on his science experiment! He is looking forward to a summer with his dad, and of course finding new friends.

Emma is finally all ready for kindergarten to start next year. She did awesome in her full time pre-k class. I have to say i think our kids these days are ready for full time school starting at kindergarten. she adjusted so well, and really enjoyed it!

We are going to the beach this weekend. Then grandpa ovard is coming down on thursday and spending some time before he helps us drive out to Troy, MO

The exciting things we are looking forward to inn Missouri are:

Nauvoo is 3 hours away so we are definitely making a stop

St. Louis is an hour awa filled with the famous arch, louis and clark museums, a zoo and six flags.

so there should be plenty to keep us busy all summer

We are thinking about trying to stick around with nate for school, at least half year.. I dont know its been a tough choice, but we all hate to be seperated from him!!

We will let you all know how it goes :)

Fiesta day fun

2009-04-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

Nate had to show a demo car at the lackland afb fiesta day party. (fiesta is a big big 2 week long party all over the place in texas lol)

So i took the kids to see there dad and they had all kinds of army displays up. One was a mobile hospital unit. They let the kids dress up as doctors, and remove scrapnel from the patient(not a real one haha) Then the kids got to suck out the blood.. and last cauterize a piece of meat lol(the smell was awful!) anyway they really enjoyed this.

Then the kids went on all the ride and we tried some homeade gorditas (yummy) and huge sausages.

It was a fun day :) The first pic is one of emma in the traditional fiesta day head piece...isnt she cute? lol the main celebration is downtown but is so crowded a little country born girl like me just doesnt want to attempt it lol. luckily they have these little small parties all over so you can still get a taste of it! the kids even get a day off school so they can go join the fiesta!! haha lots of fun in texas :)

Emma's first tooth

2009-04-21T14:55:00.001-07:00

After months and months of wishing her teeth would start getting loose it finally happened! she lost her first tooth monday :) she has been wiggling it for a week now. so excited that she was going to loose it. asking about the tooth fairy (how big he is..is he scary lol) and so she was so happy when mom helped it pop out the last little bit! Of course she promptly spent her dollar on some lipgloss (yup all girl!!). so the happy toothless pictures begin :)

Easter

2009-04-21T12:26:00.000-07:00

Easter in texas :) On saturday i designed a easter egg treasure hunt for the kids. Wade read all the clues, and then they ran all over the farm looking for the next egg. It all ended with the last egg in a bag of rice crispies which we then made rice crispies squares for our treat.

The next day they hurried out to see if the easter bunny had come. which of course it had. Bringing emma pompoms and cheer stuff, and and wade a ball and a squirt gun...and of course a big cholocate bunny :). After church we were invited over to the rios's for easter dinner. i baked rolls, and they had a bbq brisket which was very yummy. I was so glad nate was able to be here for easter. I think it really made it special for the kids.

Texas :)

2009-04-13T12:24:00.000-07:00

I know its been awhile, ive been drawn away to facebook lol. A dear friend reminded me that blogs are more indepth and she missed seeing mine so im being a good girl and posting whats been going on.

We made it to texas safe and sound...quite a trip with 2 kids and 2 dogs.. but without too much drama we found texas after 2 days of driving. We were greeted by 80' weather and sun :) We were very happy to have a place to stay and enjoyed the luxory of room in holly's place after being in the trailer for a couple months.

The kids started school and have been enjoing it ! Emma actually goes to all day pre-k...what a suprise for mom to have her gone all day i was lost the first day not sure what to do with myself lol WAde is enjoying his new teacher and loving school again :) they enjoy being on the farm and helping with the chores(not sure how much help they are but they are loving it)

We have some awesome neighbors (there are 4 homes on a 30 acre farm..its amazing!) The owners the bartons have always been very nice and have welcomed us warmly. the rios's(daughter to the bartons) have 2 children 12 and 13 who keep wade and emma entertained and they love hanging out with them so its very nice.

Nathans job ended abrubtly a week and a half ago. he thought he would get onto another crew but it didnt happen. so he decided to come out and join us in texas for awhile. he took a job out here at a honda dealership, so he will work there for awhile. im not sure what the next job will do. he is in a debate to keep going or stay put for awhile. the construction really takes a toll on the family its hard, but we know its temporary so we are debating what to do. Ill keep ya all posted on what ends up happenning. If he does go back on the road we will join him in the summer for awhile before returning here for school in the fall

Emma had a pre-k feild trip to sea world of all places :) it was a blast! i was able to attend where they let the kids see all the animals, then they had a couple shows one with shamu, and one with the sea lions..it was so fun!! I loved the dolphins, and of course just wondering around seeing the amazing animals. it was a once in a lifetime experience for emma she loved it!

Anyway we have been enjoying the 80' weather and loving the sun :) Ill keep ya posted with pics and stuff as we go :) love ya all and miss ya all :)

my cuties :)

2009-03-09T11:36:00.001-07:00

Here are my cuties. How they have grown this year. they have stepped up to the challenges and done so well.

we are taking a break from the road. Nate is probably continuing on to missouri. As we didnt intend for wade to move this much in the school year we have decided ( after much prayer and a little heartache) to let them finish school in texas with holly. then we will rejoin Nate in the summer. then the kids will continue school in texas in the fall.

It was not an easy choice as these kids love there dad...and there dad loves them. but we know this is just a short time. and that we are doing this to better our family. we will all be a little stronger and wiser when we are all done (i hope)

The kids again were an active part of our decision. as this effects them. they agreed this was the best thing and are looking forward to staying in the same place for school.

What an adventure we have had. we will miss Ohio, we have made many friends here. we love the ward. and will sorely miss the fellowship we have fet here. So on this crazy adventure we continue. to the end..and our happy ending (which includes a house and a dad lol) we love you all and have appreciated all the prayers we have felt in our behalf!

our little mistake lol

2009-03-02T10:01:00.000-08:00

Well of course daisy went into heat, and of course we tried to keep rocky and her apart..but thats very hard to do in a 24 ft trailer . so the inevitable happened and we end up with puppies. Daisy being very young im afraid had a very hard time. not knowing what to do with them.( so I got on the comp and researched taking care of new puppies, birthing them, and hand feeding them) it took many days to teach her how to feed them and to stay with them.

Unfortunately one was born with a cleft palate and eventually died. the little girl though is still going strong. we had a scare when moms milk dropped to nothing and i had to supplement. but it looks like even that has passed so little roxy ( named by holly as she will be taking over at 7 weeks lol) is 1 week today! mom and baby are both doing well. and mom tasha is exhausted..lol but there is something about a baby puppy and a new life to bring your own into perspective. and of course they are just so gosh darn cute!!

Marriage memo :)

2009-02-18T09:52:00.000-08:00

I saw this on melissa's post thought it was cute so here goes :)

1. Where did you and your husband meet?
We met while we were both going to school at Weber state university. i was in a not dating stage..and a dear friend of ours kept trying to put us together...to the point that he staged a group thing and we showed up and it was me and nate lol. and eventually we clicked became best friends and the rest is history :)

2. How long before you kissed?
We hadnt really been going out that long..maybe a couple weeks. nate invited me to a dance at the college and we were in getting the food ready for every one and he kissed me. Bad boy. then he wouldnt stop kissing me all night at the dance.. and i was mad because we were suppose to just be friends..not anything more but i kissed him back so silly i know lol

3. Who kissed who first?
He did of course lol

4. How long from the time you met until you were engaged?
about 3 months. not very long. i was expecting him to tell me that we were more than friends (since we were kissing lol) so i was waiting for him to tell me he liked me. instead he proposed. i was blown away.. and didnt say anything for like 5 min. you should have seen his face when I didnt speak for 5 min!! lol

5. How did he propose?
We were sitting on the couch watching a movie after a dance at the college. he turned to me very serious (hence i thought he was going to tell me he really liked me) and he said he really loved me and wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. and i was dumbstruck..but eventually i said yes :)

6. Did he pick out the ring or did you?
We went together. we didnt have alot of money, and it was so unexpected for me that i had no clue what i wanted. but we settled on a solitaire and matching bands..

7. Do you still like the ring?
I still have the diamond, after i worked at a jewelry store i picked out something i really loved, so i took my diamond and put it in a necklace so i can always have it :)

8. Where was your wedding and reception?
We were married in the Salt lake Temple. Our reception was in henefer.

9. How many bridesmaids did you have, and who was your maid of honor?
My sisters were my bridesmaids.. and my best freind maurnee thomas was my maid of honor

10. What color were your bridesmaid dresses?
navy blue if i remeber lol

11. What was your bouquet made of?
My mother made it, it had all kinds of flowers and navy blue and burgundy ribbons it was very pretty

12. Who gave you away?
hmm dont really do it that way in the temple :)

13. Did you cry during your wedding?
I think I was in shock ..lol so I was very quiet :) and i didnt cry lol

14. What style was your dress?
I designed it, and my mother made it.. its was gorgeous with a empire waist and v bottom.. i loved it

15. Was your wedding kiss sweet or sexy?
sweet...lol my hubby would be too embarassed for sexy lol

16. Who caught your bouquet?
I have no clue lol im sure there is a picture somewhere

17. What flavor was your cake?
The top was spice.. it was yummy, im not sure if we did different flovors or not lol

18. Did you smash the cake onto each other's faces or feed it to each other nicely?
I think we were nice..a little mushing but no smashing :)

19. What was "your song" that you danced to at your wedding?
we didnt dance to a song. my mother did a hawaiin wedding dance, and maurnee sang it was beautiful.

20. What did you serve your guests to eat?
lol i think we had little sandwiches..but i cant remeber hehe

21. What did your friends do to decorate your car?
i know they did something ..nate just ran through a drivethrough on our way to salt lake!

22. What was your favorite wedding gift?
our dishes we picked out from zcmi. and the money we got, because otherwise we woudnt have been able to go on our honeymoon

24. Where did you go on your honeymoon?
We spent first night in salt lake and the hotel didnt have the honeymoon suite ready so we got to go in the presidential suite..was very awesome. then we went to montana for a week :)

25. Looking back, is there anything you would have changed about your wedding?
Hmm well thats for another time im sure lol prob would have eloped..much easier hee J/k

I am very happy I am with such a wonderful man. He is a marvelous father, and husband and tries very hard to provide for his family. He is very spiritual, and loves his family couldnt ask for anything more!!

Mundane

2009-02-10T09:47:00.000-08:00

I know i havent written anything exciting lately. but honestly everything right now is just mundane. We are getting into our schedule. With Nathan back to work, Wade at school, and emma starting preschool (hurray!! lol) and me with my working out every morning and then cleaning and shoping and all the normal stuff i do..lol we have finally found a nice schedule and our life is nice and boring hehe. and i can say personally it is nice to finally have a little drama out of the way. we are long way from catching up from the no working thing, but things are heading in the right direction and so its been a quiet couple of weeks. and im not complaining in the least .

There are days i come home and wish i could walk into a house rather than a scrunched trailer. or that i could send my kids to there "rooms" rather than cubby holes. but on the flip side we are doing well and surviving.

Emma qualified for the preschool at the school where wade goes to, so she is there mon-thurs. afternoons.. she gets to ride the bus( which she thinks is the best thing ever!!) and mom is getting alot more free time... which was sore in need

so as life settles in, im all for mundane lol. and im looking forward to more of it in the future :)

Snow Days!

2009-01-28T09:04:00.000-08:00

So growing up in utah, snow days were not the fun you get to miss school and stay home and play..lol well in cincinnati thats a different ballgame. they panic at and inch of snow. so when we heard a major storm was coming the panic started almost instantly. monday schools delayed or closed even though it wasnt snowing!! Tuesday brought 3 inches of snow and so wades school closed as did Nates work. We all laughed knowing that in utah 3 inches is a day in the park lol. then we heard the rest of the forcast. 1/2-1 inch of ice over night turning to 4 more inches of snow. now if u have never been through an ice storm its crazy and wicked! the rain comes down and instantly freezes. so we woke up today with 1/2 inch of ice and heavy snow falling! of course school was canceled and nates work as well. and though the first day of staying home and playing was fun, a second day confined to a small trailer didnt not sound as appealing lol. but the kids of course wanted to wake up and go play outside being utahns and missing playing in the snow lol. so here are a few snow pics of the snow day :) feels more and more like utah..except that thick layer of ice on everything lol

New Hair!!

2009-01-22T19:12:00.001-08:00

Yes i went and got new hair today lol. Anybody that knows me, knows that changing my hair is like therapy for me. hehe. I love walking into a salon and walking out feeling like a new person. Its my one vice..hehe ok maybe i have more than one but its a fun one heh.

I started out with blonde hair just a couple months ago. and then i went brown with melissa, which i felt it was a mousy color so i turned it into black lol.

I know black isnt the best color for me, but its a fun one, but very high maintance to say the least .

So today i was going to have them lift the black and try a brown with caramel highlights. well lets just say that didnt happen lol. when she pulled the black out it went to this very pretty color of redish brown. She was so amazed she had gotten a usable color (guess that it usually goes fire red, or carrot orange lol) that she was like wow that color looks really good, u should try it. of course me being all game said sure hehe. and so a little while later i walked out a red head.

The pic doesnt do the color justice..ill have to try and find a better way to capture the color. its a really pretty dark red. with lots of different tones in it. im going to have fun with it for sure. and it really makes my eyes look green lol

So i guess for awhile im exploring the world of red hehe. Emma's first words to me were. "your not my mom, my mom has black hair lol" And of course wade said thats cool mom. hehe. and nate just sighed and said whatever makes you happy hehe.

So for now the red sticks..and we will go from there hehe

BTW nates job is going great. he is just excited to be working im sure. The ward out here is wonderful, we have been asked to someone's house for dinner at least once a week. so we are meeting lots of people hehe. And as soon as that first pay check hits we should be doing fine lol. Love ya all, miss ya lots :)

Pilates

2009-01-20T08:59:00.000-08:00

My new favorite class.. PILATES. I was taking 2 zumba classes but i ran into an instuctor who couldnt keep a beat or count it lol..and the teacher in me just couldnt handle that class lol. so i decided to switch to pilates. this is my second week and i am loving it!! i feel so much longer and taller and straighter when im done. And finding all those core muscles and isolating them is intriguing lol i didnt know they were all there. we have an awesome instructor who will com around and show us if were pointing the right way or doing it right..lol but today i walked out of the gym feeling energized, and tall lol (this is a big deal u know lol)

anyway im loving all my classes really my kick boxing class..literally kicks butt.. she is awesome..doesnt let ya off easy yet does all different lvls and keeps ya going ...and keeps those muscles going too lol

my cardio shape with weights class is awesome too..alot of step arobics, weights stretches and so forth. and our teacher is so cute u just cant help liking it

zumba im not sure yet..due to wade's school being delayed because of cold weather i have only attened the one class with the teacher i just couldnt hack, so ill let you know this week how the other goes :)

And yes Nathan started his job!! yeah we were both soo relieved. He is doing enviromental work on site..really meaning going around making sure site is clean, fences up, and water where its suppose to be....he is on a 4 man crew and he said first day was spent getting lost on ohio roads lol go figure :) im sure he will enjoy it and were so gratefull that it started!!!

we just really feel blessed. it was struggle for sure, but i know we are where we are suppose to be, and doing what were suppose to do. thank you all for your concern and prayers and help!! love ya all and miss ya al tons!!

good news

2009-01-18T05:42:00.000-08:00

yeah! we got the call we were waiting for! Nate should start work monday. what a long and very hard wait its been! not to say that having nate home that long was very strange..like getting to know him all over again lol.

but we survived! thank you all for your phone calls, and prayers. Ill keep you up to date on how it goes :)

The one thing we have started doing as a family is playing games. since we dont have a tv in the trailer just a comp to watch movies, the kids have taken a liking to playing board games and cards . its been alot of fun to see them learn the games we all loved as a kid! what an expierence this has been!

But now we can all get back to a regular schedule lol. you all know what i mean lol. ill keep you all up to date about how it goes :)

Struggling..but ok!

2009-01-12T15:29:00.000-08:00

I know you have all wondered why i havent posted how wonderful nates job is and how we are really doing. i now i have been procrastinating this for one simple fact....Nate hasnt started his job. One thing after another, has left us without starting. Nate has a job, and were doing very hard trying to get him started. but it is a union job, and the company is hiring him so they are having problems with numbers, and things. Its the beginning of a job, and so they are trying to bring crews in and all. it sounds so simple...but not if you havent had a job for over a month!!

Anyway things are getting closer we know he will be in soon. We are stressed but we havent lost it...yet lol . we know you have all been praying for us, and we appreciate all the concern.

the ward has been marvelous here and taken good care us!! so as soon as nate starts well be doing fine lol ( at least i keep telling myself that)

Any way we love and miss ya all. were surviving and we know it will all work out in the end... last word we heard was a couple days. so..keep the prayers.

my beautiful and talented sister!!

2009-01-06T16:16:00.000-08:00

My very talented and beautiful sister Hollyann and her dance partner Richard had an opportunity to compete at dancing with the stars live in san antonio.

10 couples gathered together during a preshow to compete for judges, they were narrowed down to 5 couples. the 5 couples then preformed at first of show and were narrowed down to 2 couples. These 2 couples ( holly and richard and fellow coworkers jenny and david) were picked to preform solos doing cha cha and jive later in the show. then the audience txted in there votes for the winner...drum roll. Yes HOLLY and her partner RICHARD were voted #1 with 73% of the vote !!! I am sooo proud of her! she has over come so much this year, and i know this was a major thing for her to preform in front of thousands of people and come out winning first place!

I just want her to know how proud I am of her. and that i love her soo much. and i know she has gone through the ringer this year but she is pushing her way to the top :) And that she is doing so well i am so glad she is my sister, and my best friend :) i love holly GRATZ!!

YMCA

2008-12-30T19:44:00.000-08:00

YMCA...lol yes im not kidding. Lebanon ( a sleepy little town 5 miles from us) boasts the biggest ymca in the world!! with facility a size you wouldn’t believe and so many things to do it takes a calendar to write down all your things, its amazing!!

My cousin michelle told me about the one here. she joined one in her last place and was amazed at all they do. in utah they are not so big..out here they are huge!! so she told me to go take the tour and check it out. so we did, and oh my word..there are not words to describe the place...

so needless to say we joined because i will have alot of time with nate working and living in a trailer does not promote physical activity lol. well let me tell you a little of what this means for each of us:

MOM: m/w- 45 min cardio kickboxing class followed by 45 min walking and weight session, t/th- zumba...ill let u know more about that later, followed by 45 min walking and weight session. f-45 min walking and weight session followed by a soak in the hot tub (located privately in the adult womens locker room!) s- 45 min power ball workout followed by walking and weight session. Lol fun huh

DAD: periodically on way home from work will be stopping to do some weights and stretches, and also soaking long periods in the hot tub ( located privately in the adult men locker room) plus sneaking in anytime with family to do activities.

WADE: m/w kids circut training (weights) followed by free time in the preteen hang out room ( no grown ups allowed but supervised by staff) which includes games, tv, computer, wii, work out equipment and overall cool room lol. possibility of karate or gymastics..hasnt narrowed it down yet lol..thinking soccer too..but who knows well keep ya posted lol

EMMA: 2 hour playtime every day moms working out in the child watch center with cousin ibrahim ( yes this is included in gym price..very awesome). then gymnastics on wed, and more fun time in kids activity room. Plus swim time when in the family aquatics center on family nights

This is just the partial schedule...doesnt include all the extra stuff, rock climbing, racketball..or elective stuff like soccer, swimming lessons, and anything else u can think of doing. im dreaming of guitar lessons, belly dancing lol...arts and crafts for the kids,....its amazing my mind is going so many ways...only missing time lol.

anyway you can see were all excited about this, and hopefully will help keep us doing things as a family as well as keeping us in shape! Go YMCA lol (as emma is singing it in background)

Getting ready for christmas

2008-12-22T16:56:00.000-08:00

Getting ready for christmas in a trailer is a very interesting endeavor lol. Nate said no Christmas tree, and i said yes Christmas tree so we compromised and agreed on a 24 inch tree lol. so i went to micheals who had the cutest mini ornaments and trees all for 60% off( the luck of waiting till the last 1 weeks i guess lol) and so here is the result. The kids loved decorating it, and it took like 20 min lol. space saver really does work lol. we found a christmas station and we programmed it into the radio and we listen to it every night for ambieance. it is intersting how little of a space you need..the important thing is the spirit of christmas. We definatly have been trying to have alot of that this year. especially being away from family. we love and miss you all...and wish everyone a very merry christmas!!!!

our new home

2008-12-18T13:05:00.001-08:00

After making it to mason oh. we got wade registered into school ( and what a project, u have to make a appt to fill out paper work lol but thats a whole other story) We found out that nates old neighbors live here and we got in touch with them and had dinner. they also teach a preschool and have kids emma's and wades age. so we have done alot of socializing this week :)

We found our new ward, and have been exploring the area. ohio is beautiful. they keep telling me to wait till spring and fall. but i think its very pretty now. with rolling hills and lots of trees(even without leaves)

we also survived our first ice storm, and school closures lol. lots of firsts....were still trying to figure out the villages/townships and all the other little oddities that are an eastern thing lol.

and of course getting lost...without the mountains u have to actually know where your going hehe.

my cousin michelle came in im soooo excited she is here too. Emma and Brahim play very well and so it should be great. all in all its been a very exciting and fun exprience.

Nate starts work the 28th...which put a damper on things, as he is going NUTS ( and driving me nuts too lol) staying home. but were trying to make the best of it.

thanks all for your prayers and concerns and we wish everyone a happy holidays!! and we miss you all!!

road trip to OHIO

2008-12-18T07:35:00.000-08:00

Well we made it. after 4 days of driving. It took us 8 hrs to drive a 2hr stretch to wy (wy is officially on the naugty list lol) we stopped in rock springs and waited out the pass as they closed it due to 65mph winds. we were very happy to say goodbye to wy and hello to nebraska! we stayed at a cabela's rv park in syndey nebraska the kids loved that and we of course had to explore the store. after looking at the weather we decided to skip iowa and illinois and took a detour south to kansas city and missouri, stopping in a little truck stop halfway through missouri. next day was a drive through st. louis (tried to stop to see the arch but driving around with a trailer thatdidnt work lol) from st louis we went through louisville, ky and then up to cincinnati. After staying the night just outside of cincinnati, we headed through to find our park. lebanon's rv park was full so we scrambled to find one and landed in one in mason oh.
we didnt know at the time mason is one of the wealthiest cities around cincinnati. as we drove to the park the houses got bigger and bigger and bigger, till nate says i think we have the wrong place..just as we were about to turn around we saw a little sign for our park. off the road and sitting around a 7 acre lake was our new home. the lake is about 1 house away from us with unlimited fishing year round lol.

so finally we made it...hom sweet home...mason oh :)

yes im alive!!

2008-12-04T19:07:00.000-08:00

Well For those of you who thought i dropped off the face of the earth i promise i haven't ...yet lol.
Nate's job ended in riverton a little over 2 weeks ago. very unexpectedly. So we debated what job to take next and so on. we came home one week to pack up the house for the people moving in... then we went back to riverton, wy to look for his next job. come to find out nobody's next job was till jan!! so we scrambled to find something anywhere for dec.

needless to say after many hours of praying and many calls later we found a job by cincanatti Ohio. yes thats ohio. We didnt know what to do about living..we didnt think my parents trailer could handle the trek. and so we were up in the air again about what to do. well another answer to prayers came in an email last friday. a lady willing to lease us her trialer till we can pay her. it has 2 bunks, a queen bed , is 28 ft and is a 2004. we were so excited. so home to utah we came (home without a home? kind of strange i know lol)

After a quick bout with strep(yup me...not emma lol) we are heading to ohio on friday dec 5. 24hrs of driving we should arrive..sometime sunday, or monday or maybe even tuesday depending on the lovely weather.

The positive things about moving to ohio:
-Nathans mission was in ohio..though further north. he is excited to show me it
-michelle black(a very close favorite cousin) will be living there too so i have a bud :)
-michelles' very cute little boy brahim and emma play very well! ! yeah emma has a friend
-this job should last 6mo to a year...so no more scrambling we hope
-we have our new trailer and the kids will have space(yeah especially for mom lol)

the not so positive:
-half way across country and not very close to family lol
-cold? lol did i say i love the cold..are u feaking kidding me..lol
-snow yes snow gets its own line seperate from cold...i mean its snow right..lol and i hate it hehe
-living in a trailer for a year? lol i know i knew what i was getting into but really hehe
-no seeing family for christmas..especially holly was very excited to spend time with her :(

ok so not too many negatives..but hey i have to have a few.

so ill keep ya all up on the trip down, prob wont have internet till we get there. so wish us all luck as we start the next great d'hulst adventure. lol.

love ya all...and thanks much for the many prayers i know have been coming our way...keep them up... they are helping greatly!

happy birthday Emma

2008-11-17T14:54:00.001-08:00

Emma's birthday was nov 9th. we celebrated it a little early as i needed to go home and pack the house.

so we picked out a special Tinkerbell cake. Bought tinkerbell the movie. and had sphaghetti (her favorite) lol . when daddie got home we opened up the tinkerbell tattoos and everyone had to put one on ( even the boys) Then she put on her tinkerbell costume and away we went to neverland lol. She had a blast and loved all her tinkerbell barbies we got (all the new ones from the new movie)

Dad didnt love that his tinkerbell tattoo didnt come off for a couple days lol..i asked if he showed all the guys lol.

I cant believe Emma is 5 now!! she is getting so big. she is such a drama queen. lol in fact her middle name should be drama. it fits perfect hehe.

She was sad she didnt have all her friends from preschool there ( she asked how they were al going to come to her birthday especially gabe and i didnt have anything to say to that...it was very sad) but of course daddy being there made it the best

things we love about emma

She loves to help clean. she will clean anything u ask ( unless its to pick up toys lol)

She has the most contagious laugh. the minute its out its loud and clear.

She loves her daddy to death..would do anything for him

She loves her best friend gabe. she talks about him all the time

She hates her belly showing, we have to have shirts long enough cause nothing can touch the" budda" lol

She loves to color, and play with little things, she is a collector..at any one time she can take a bag and fill it with anything she gets her hands on (usually paper that she has torn in pieces) she then carries it around all week.

She loves to watch movies and sing, she knows the words to any number of songs which she will sing full blast at any given time :)

we love her and so glad she is part of our family

happy birthday emma

my best freind

2008-11-04T12:01:00.000-08:00

Wanted everyone to meet my best friend melissa. ive been thinking alot about her as im out here in my trailer all alone lol. Yesterday i had a bad day and all i could think of is if i was home i would have gone over to melissa's and we would have let the kids run crazy and talked grown up talk (rare indeed) lol about our crazy lives and husbands and kids and in the end feel better!!

Melissa and I met many years ago, before i even lived in corinne. we took foster training classes together in brigham city. we hit it off right from the start. we told each other after the classes wed stay in contact. so we called each other now and then as she adopted a little boy named gabe..and we adopted emma. then we moved to corinne. and she lives in honeyville so i gave her a call and we started to do things together. lets just say we could talk for hours and hours...we would get together and let the kids run, watch movies, go out to eat, or just sit and talk. we always said we evened each other out..as she is high energetic out going , and im more laid back and slow paced. she would always get on me for letting people walk all over me, and champion whatever cause i was on lol. and i would bring her back to earth ( she knows what im talking about lol)

And the strange thing? our kids emma and gabe became best friends too. its like they knew each other from the start. and even now since we moved they talk about each other and say how they miss each other.

I told melissa i think we were friends in the pre-exsitance lol we finally found each other and i told her no matter the space between us we will always be friends forever!!

So i wanted to dedicate this blog to my best friend melissa. i miss u, and im so glad you are my friend. You will always be a part of my life, and heart. and i pray we will always stay close ( cause im coming to crash ur house as i wont have one soon lol)

And even in the future, we will kick butt playing wow, talking movies...or just talking adult talk( y that rare stuff) i am so lucky to found a friend like you. you are like a sister to me and always will be!! love ya tons. and wish you the best always!!

dont forget me when u become a famous aurthur !! i better at least have one book dedicated to me hehe.

And i hope everyone else takes a minute to think of a special friend in there lives..and remeber how much we need friends!! to brighten our days and make them better!!

halloween!

2008-11-01T08:37:00.000-07:00

Halloween !! these are my two scary kids lol. Wade wanted to be a clone trooper, and emma a pink pirate. we started the day out with the parade at wade's school. then me and emma went did some errands where everyone thought she was the cutest pirate they had ever seen lol. (thank goodness for walmart heh) then we took the kids to walmart for a candy costume parade. which turned out quite fun. they led the kids all around walmart by little signs on the floor, and each department decorated a candy bowl. lots of fun. the best was the craft dept. who built a haunted castle that you had to put ur hand in to get the candy. emma stuck hers in and the person behind touched her with something fuzzy, she jumped about a mile high!! lol then after that we waited for dad to come home and went good old fashioned trick or treating up around the schools in a cute little neighborhood. the kids loved it, and dad had a blast taking candy "tax" from each of the kids lol. then we got kfc chicken and came home and ate. all in all it was a great night. and the kids got plenty of candy for me to hide for a year! lol

weekend in casper

2008-10-27T12:18:00.000-07:00

This weekend Nate got 1/2 of saturday off, sunday off. so we took a trip to the big ole town of casper wy. mostly because nate needed work clothes. but we took the kids to a fun restruant called Sanfords. And it was alot of fun...decorated in anything u could think of the food had a cajun flavor to it and was delicious. we ended the night swimming in a hotel and sleeping in real beds!! how lovely lol. the kids had a blast and it felt like a mini vacation!! I feel like we made the right decision coming out here. yes we have sacrificed alot, yet we are growing together in ways we never would have before. now about that bigger trailer lol..still holding out for the one with a master bedroom hehe.

pumkin patch

2008-10-20T14:52:00.001-07:00

Nate got off early on sunday , came home and told the kids we were heading to the local pumkin patch. So we loaded up in the truck and headed out. what fun!! they had pumkins all over, different colors and kinds. It was a blast and a great treat for the kids. We loved spending some rare time with daddy, and getting to explore the pumking patch as we went. since were in a little trailer we decided carving pumking were out and were going to paint them instead lol. so thats todays project. ill post the results.

the kids are doing really well as is nate. we really enjoy being here with him..even if we only get him a couple hours every night. We love supporting him and helping him. this is our families togetherness...and i think it will bring us closer in the years to come. now it doesnt stop me from dreaming of a bigger trailer with a master bedroom lol....sigh i can dream cant I?

worst part of living in a trailer

2008-10-16T11:27:00.000-07:00

The worst part of living in a 22ft camper trailer? when one of your kids get sick. yes emma.. you guessed it. lol . my girl that cant hold anything down if her stomach is a little ill...10 times ..sigh. yes that makes a little 22ft camper stink to high heaven!!

yes i felt bad, and and all that..but its hard to remeber that while trying to clean out throw up..from the floor and a bucket we luckily found...its not like u can just flush it down the toilet...sigh...ya i wont go into details.

Anyway. she is doing better luckily after im sure getting every bit out. Wade started school up here in riverton, wy yesterday...went well..except today the bus didnt stop where it said it would lol. so luckily a neighbor who drives her kids in to a nearby school offered to take him in so i could stay home with emma

Nate said the next area he thinks hes going to is kemmer. not sure what to think about that.lol. my mom used to teach there once a week, so i know it a little bit...my dad says its cold there..lol im finding wyoming is cold everywhere....and the wind? its crazy. my nails are splitting and bleeding no matter how much lotion i put on lol. so i keep reminding myself i really do love my husband...hehe.

meanwhile holly calls and tells me its cold cause she only reached 65 today...lol i want to shoot her...love ya holly....cause i think its finally warm cause its up to 4o hehe...

amyway were doing ok...surviving together...and im sure well remeber this little adventure for years to come lol. thanks all for your support and i miss all you guys!!

made a choice

2008-10-13T14:27:00.000-07:00

Well after coming home and leaving nate. the family tried to get back to normal. but i just had this very ominous feeling i needed to be with nate. at first i thought it was just i didnt want to be alone without him. but ive done that before..ive left him for 3 weeks and was fine. the next morning wade came down sick and we sat on the bed and had a family discussion. the only reason werent following nate was wade's school..so i told him id let him decide...did he want to stay in his new school, or go be with dad. we talked about the pros and cons...and i really didnt pressure him at all. and he kept saying..mom i want to be with dad. i guess the week i was gone he had a very bad time in school...to the points i got a call because of his behavior..we are such a close family i know this has effected us all. so I said ok..lets do it..and we started to plan it, packing and going to go the next day to riverton. well then we found out about the incoming storm and decided the next day was going to have to be today lol. and we jetted to wy as fast as we could.

needless to say we scared nate to death lol and he didnt know what to think. but all that was put aside as we redied the trailer for the storm. well it didnt work..our heat tape failed and our water froze lol. but we weathered the worst storm theyve had all year lol. on sunday nate sat and gave all the kids blessings, in wades he told them that he would be blessed educationally because of his choice to be with his family over school. i had tears in my eyes when i heard this...what a blessing!! then he gave emma one and me one. In mine he told me that i would have the strength to see this family through this and keep us together and that i would also be blessed for my choice. what a reassruance that following the spirit is the right thing to do. i know this wont be easy..lol especially being crammed in this little trailer. but i know we will be blessed for our desire to be together as a family. nate is sacrificing for this family and in our way we can do the same to better the life of our family. i know we will all be blessed for our sacrifice. and that in the long run this will be our family closer together!!

I am so gratefull to have the gospel to be able to tell me what i need to do..for that small whispering guiding me in making the right choices. and though the road ahead is full of questions and unkowns..i know we will be together as a family and we will get through it :) love ya all. thanks for all your support. i will keep u updated about where we go next and whats happening.

single parenthood

2008-10-07T18:38:00.001-07:00

Well I left my beloved husband in wyoming today. with heavy heart, i sent him off to work, cleaned the trailer a little so he could come home and make food and talk with the kids. and drove the 5 1/2 hrs to corinne. I walked into my house, and sighed. all my energy left me. can i do this? how do people do this? i know this is just till dec..and yet i want to break down crying. can i handle being a single mom till then..knowing there is no one to lean and and support me? no one to snuggle up to at night and hold me and tell me its ok? I have never felt so alone :(

I didnt realize how much just seeing him everynight meant to me. its like the absense of him hangs heavily in the air. like the whole house is sad because he is gone. And here i am going to try and maintain an order of peace and happiness while my heart is broken...as i left half of it in wyoming with him. i pray he is safe. and that he feels the love i have for him tonight. i pray he knows he means the world to me and that me and the kids feel a big loss without him. yet we know he is doing this for us. to help us survive. i love you nathan david d'hulst. forever your baby natasha

what a difference a day makes!

2008-10-01T16:21:00.000-07:00

Woke up monday morning with a list of projects a mile long . who would have figured by monday night id be on a road to riverton wy. lol we got the call at 8pm wed night. if nate could make it to riverton wy by 7am the following morning he might have a job....enphasis on might!! As soon as i got the call i scrambled around to find babysitters, and figure out what do with myself and kids for a week lol. so emma went to grandma ovards, Wade went to nates' sisters house. and i drove nate to wy( so he could sleep if he ended up working a 12 hour day!!) so now im sitting here in a friends trailer ( were sleeping in the back of the van lol) wondering how i came here and how my life is going to change dramatically. We are coming home saturday or sunday to pick up a trailer for nathan to live in. then he is heading back. who knows when i will see him again.

im sad scared excited all in a nutshell. the pay is good so i cant complain about that. but i hate for us to be split up even though i knew this might be coming. im toying with the idea that as soon as he takes his second assignment in november we might pack up and join him. who knows...i hate to move the kids from there schools..especially wade. but at the same time..we are a family and all of us love spending time with each other and i dont know how good we would do apart..sigh. desicions. im wondering know if this is a sign that my texas plans are too fast. i know without a doubt that we are going there..but im wondering if my time and god's time are 2 different things lol .

Well i know it will all pan out in the end and i need to just be patient and let heavenly father do his thing lol. but wow..who would have known a week ago this is where id be!! silly me...borin sounds so good right now lol..nice boring life. :)

i survived!!

2008-09-29T12:22:00.000-07:00

Ive decided the definition of Insanity is 12 9 year olds at a birthday party lol. Wade turned 9 on the 22nd and i havent let him have a friend b-day in 2 years so i decided to go all out lol. so we planned a lego b-day party, and invited 8 people..lol but wade my social bug kept inviting more and more kids lol till i threatened him that if he invited one more i would call it off lol.

anyway they all had a blast making lego knight shields and having a lego building competition :) and after it was done i was so exhausted. especially since the cake took an hour to build the two raid towers lol!! but wade said it was the best day in his life and so it made it all worth it in the end lol!! and now emma is going on about what she wants for her birthday lol. at least i have till november to recover hehe.

In other news: nate has decided to take a job in wy. after much discussion we have decided the car business is just not going to get better for awhile and we are swimming in our medical debt. as much as it pains me to see him do it, i know its the right thing. so in the next couple weeks he is leaving to go to wy for at least 6 mo to a year. he can come home on sundays..but its a 6 hr dr..and with winter coming i dont know how much that will really work :( so im gearing myself up to be a single mom for awhile. We would go with him, but wade is doing so well at this school i cant take him out, so it is a sacrafice i need to make so that my kids can keep going to. Nathan is going to have a tough time as he loves his children dearly and would spend every waking hour with them if he could. we are buying web cams so nate can say goodnight to them every night. and of course talk with me. luckily i have my two dogs to keep me company in bed lol i hate sleeping alone . plus the house is still up for sell so i will probably be moving alone to. we are putting the moving to texas aside till at least wade is out of school. but decided to sell the house since we dont know how long it will take to sell. i will then rent a house in either brigham city or north ogden and continue sending wade to school. wow what i would do for a nice boring life right? lol

The Corinne Pageant

2008-09-15T07:57:00.000-07:00

For all of you who dont know i live in a little small dopey town called corinne, it has a little over 500 people. Just the way i like it. lol But it has a very colorful history. it was the first Gentile city in utah. it had more brothels and saloons than people!! for all those who know there history golden spike(promotory point) is close to us where the north train rail met the south. The little town of corinne went from 50 people to 10,000 back to 50 in 5 years!! its was quite a towns with "soiled doves" and oprah house, and a steam ship that went 500 ft before running aground on a sand bar lol. It had a divorce machine, where for 2.50 u could get a divorce signed by a layer without ur spouse present lol...2000 people did this till it was found to be illegal lol.

anyway corinne is mostly a small mormon town now. but the corinne historical society doesnt want people to forget about the history of this town, so every year we do a little play nothing spectacilar, all is volunteer by the community.. but its so fun!! the last 3 years i have been a " soiled dove" my husband a muleskinner and kids pioneer kids. I have also choregraphed the dances. as soon as i figure out how to upload vidoes ill have to share the"bear river dance" the cowboys do lol...its a riot and lots of fun. What a way the town comes together to celebrate our quirky history lol. i thought id share some of our fun pictures..i have one more with the sheriff and the soiled doves i need to upload...but enjoy lol

poem

2008-09-14T21:05:00.000-07:00

Holly and i did a little poem writing let us know what u think :)

who knows who cares for me?

who knows the beating of my heart?
who cares for the light in my soul?
who dreams the same dreams that i do?
who knows who cares for me?

who hears the cries in my head?
as i walk through the trials of fire.
who holds my hand in the darkness?
who knows who cares for me?

who leads me a long when I'm down?
who carries me when i a have no strength?
whose eternal arms are around me?
who knows who cares fo me.?

Who will guide me through this life?
who will open the doors to the sky?
who will lift me up to heavens?
who knows who cares for me?

2008-09-12T17:36:00.000-07:00

Wade's first day of venture academy was a field trip to the bird refuge in farmington. he loved it!! The next day i asked him what subject he learned. he said i didnt learn anything. i said oh ya what did u do? and he said we played a game, i was a swallow , and there was preditors (falcons and merlins) and i was a pray and they chased us. then we made a chart and i drew a whole group of swallows. so i said hmm sounds like u didnt learn any science at all today lol. Then today he came home and said school was so awsome and that there math class was really cool and go to use bigger numbers than normal lol. i am so glad he is enjoying it. he has made a new friend in the carpool named wyatt..who is also as smart as a whip. now i wonder what im going to do when we move, im going to have to try and put him in another charter school, i mean he is loving every minute of this and i know he wil continue to do so throughout the year!! sad thing is every school should be like this...where ur curriculum is hands on, and your works is based on your lvl. how sad our public school system keeps getting worse instead of better!!

little miss kimber

2008-09-09T18:46:00.000-07:00

this is little miss kimber who came into our life in nov of 07 and left june of 08, it was a tough case and a heartrenching story. i pray everyday that she is safe, and that she will grow to be strong and happy...she will forever be a part of our family and melded into our hearts forever!!

we miss you kimber!! and we love you!!

Well Wade is officially going to venture academy tomorrow. i am excited for him. they are going on a field trip allready....its sounds like such an awesome school i hope he likes it.

ive been thinking alot about writing again. melissa just won first place with her awesome story and im so proud of her, and she got me thinking of how i use to love to write. so maybe ill drop a peom or something here or there who know..lol

venture academy

2008-09-08T17:36:00.000-07:00

I just got a call today from a charter school called venture academy. I learned that Wade has been accepted to their school. Its been excited but stressful to think about. first it would be an excellent opportunity for him to continue growing his education...he is an especially smart boy...who learns very easy and every year in school, they cap his reading and math...to the point he's bored...i try and suppliment at home but its not the same thing. then there is the smaller class size and the the more hands on teaching methods..only down thing is its so far away...and we would have to carpool down. its alot to think about..especially with thinking of moving on the way but i think it will work. Ill let you know how it goes lol...talk with you soon

Im Back!!

2008-09-07T13:27:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone :) After a long vacation of writing I finally decided to start again lol. I read melissa's post everyday and wish i was keeping up with hers lol. so here it goes.

Whats up with me: I am currently remodeling my house so i can sell it. After much time and consideration we have decided to move to San Antonio texas. people think we are crazy (except my sis holly who understands) but i know we are suppose to do that...not only that i know that my future foster children are out there waiting for us. after much prayer and fasting i know that thats where they are. So i have been working my butt off everyday repainting rooms, adding a deck and french doors, trying to slim things out to make the house look its best. it goes up for sale wed. this week so wish me luck.

I am excited about moving except for leaving my friend melissa. she has been more than a friend , more like a sister to me... i will miss her dearly, and frequently tell her im dragging her to texas lol. well i am going to keep up this blog..if its the last thing i can do!! so cya soon lol

loved it...from meslissa's page ;)

2007-04-24T08:08:00.000-07:00

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2007-04-10T08:29:00.001-07:00

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2007-02-28T09:58:00.000-08:00

Well we are adding an new addition to our home this week. Her name is Amya and she is a doll!! We are watching her while her mother is in jail.( this is Emma's birth sister)

Most people think we are crazy taking her for six months with the option of giving her back. but think about it. if this was your daughter and you had messed up wouldn't you want a chance to make it right? If someone took one of my baby's I would go crazy.

Of course having two 20 month old babies in the house is going to be work hehe. I already have great empathy for parents with twins hehe. But she is adjusting well already. Her and my foster baby trenton are a day apart!! so they really are like twins...and they are getting along together very well. And of course getting into lots of trouble together too hehe.

Emma is dealing well with it, I don't really think she understands this is her real sister, but she she calls her her sister.

So I hope i survive the next six months....heh... But these kids are worth it...:)

On the lighter side ;)

2007-02-18T10:56:00.000-08:00

Ok everyone should love this.... and its true:)

My DH cousins live in Canada, one has a 16 year old daughter. Last week she was taking care of a friends dog while they were out of town. she would ride a bus accross town, feed the dog and play with it for awhile. well one day she went over and she couldn't find the dog anywhere. She finally walked down stairs and found the dog dead( of old age).

Well she didn't want to leave the body there (and being 16 and very resoursefull) she decided to put the dead body into a suitcase to take home on the bus with her. As she was sitting on the bus a man started talking to her...finally he asked what was in the suitcase. not wanting to say a dead dog, she said electronics.

Well she got off at her stop and noticed the man also got off, she didn't think anything of it and started walking home. suddenly the man ran up behind her, grabbed the suitcase and ran off!!

He thought he had grabbed a bag of electronics!! how i would have loved to see his face when he opened it up and there was dead dog hehee.

I thought this was so funny!! and poor girl she was more worried that she didn't have the body of the dog than about being robbed...heh :)

Pissy week

2007-02-18T10:38:00.001-08:00

ok well its been one of those weeks I am so honery i can't stand myself. I cant imagine what my kids think..sigh. Im just tired i guess, and everything annoys me, including myself LOL.

my computer is driving me nuts. I had my brother in law build me one a few years ago, and he put a copied version of windows on. now nothing works. I can't even read emails with clips in it cause its so messed up. so i called him to ask him if he could help me so i could get help and he tells me 'well your just going to have to put a real copy of windows in like everyone else' I looked at him in amazement. he was the one that put the copy on not me. i would have paid for a real version...sigh..now i can't cause i don't have the money.

And thats the other thing bothering me right now. we have never had alot of money but enough to pay our bills, but since nate started his new job last year we have had so much less...plus more bills because of my medical bills. and its like this cycle. if i could get a credit card to pay off some of the medical bills we would be ok, but the medical bills have messed up our credit and so now we cant get any help, and we still can't pay all the thousands of dollars of bills ...its so messed up, its something you can't get out of. I can't work cause i can't afford to pay a babysitter for 3 kids, my husband is already working 50+ hrs a week, he doens't have time to take on a part time job....I HATE MONEY...I hate that you have to have it to survive, i hate that it causes so much stress, I hate that i can't get enough to sustain my family, and i hate that everything in my house is breaking or broke and i can't do anything to fix it.

well there is my rant....i guess its not much to read. but oh well....ill try again next time when im not in such a pissy mood. :(

Bad Hair month!!

2006-12-15T13:53:00.000-08:00

Haha this month has been a crazy hair month....so im posting here for everyone to know ...DONT TRY THIS AT HOME!! hehe

its started out that i couldn't afford to go have my hair colored by my regular stylist..so i thought i ll just put a rinse in and be fine till next month. well the color was suppose to be light blonde. its went more like platinum blond err. so i decided i already hate my hair so why not go dark like i have always wanted...so i put a black color in

1st warning...never change your hair from blond to black, unless u want to stay there as its easier to go darker but not easier to go lighter from black hehe

so i loved the black, it was way different and fun, but i realized that upkeep was going to be hard, and the hair color after few days wasn't as pretty or glossy as at first. so i though i would just go to a dark brown. heh. well u can't do this, i found out, because black will not got to brown like brown to black!!

So i researched how to get rid of black hair, i was too embarrassed to go to my regular sytlist so i decided to remove it myself

2nd warning....everyones hair does not respond the same to hair removers!! the best way to remove color...go to a sylist who does lots of hari cloring hehe

I followed the directions to the letter....my hair turned the orange/red the directions said it would and i was ready to put the next color on.....a dark brown.....

needless to say this didn't happen. because the hair remover burnt my scalp and hair, so my hair didn't pick up all the color, it went to a mousy medium red brown...i was horrified. i trimmed all my edges and went to a cheap hair color place to trim of the burnt(only cause it was 8 pm at night and no sylists were open.

she recommened putting a semi-perm color on in mean time

3rd warning ...after putting light to dark to no color to dark...your hair will open up and accept all color as permanent color!! therefore semi will not be semi...but permanant

i put a black rinse in and next day went to a salon(broke down cause i needed a good haircut) this stylist told me that my hair would not be ready to accept any color for a couple months while it repaired itself..and also told me that the semi perm..would take as a permanant....and told me next time come in and they have removers they test on your hair before doing to see how they respond......sigh....

I did end up with a ok haircut...but my hair is about 2 inches shorter and my scalp has tiny little scabs all over it. i still have the black color which i will wear for as long as i can stand before trying to remove and restore my regular color......

the moral of the story is if u want to go an extreme color, always go semi-perm, or have a professional do it....it will save you money in the long run.....

my cheap dye ended costing me over 85 dollars, broken hair, and a sore scalp. plus hair dresser said it would probably grow back white or grey....because of the damage....sigh.....learn from my mistakes please!!! Natasha

Hi melissa!!

2006-10-21T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hi im here...how are u? are u fine? look im writing on my blog just for you:)

a little bit of kids...

2006-08-08T13:41:00.000-07:00

More of my little squirts...they are growing up so fast!! Wade will be seven in sept.....How can I have a seven year old? he is boss 2. of course with dad gone alot he thinks thats his job.... hehe

Emma is 2 1/2...well that says it all doesn't it hehe....she is going to be a beautiful girl...and very stubborn, did I say she was stubborn!!

and Trenton our little foster boy is coming alive. learning what foods he likes, trying to learn that no means NO hehe.

foster care this time around has definatly been easier emotionally. I have found how to love him without exactly attaching myself to him as "MINE" . we have no idea what is happening with mom and dad...they are still sitting in jail as far as I know...there is talk of removing mom's rights...but not sure about dad's yet. I would love to adopt him...but I also know he might still go home as well...
I sure so love these guys....as much as they make me crazy...I wouldn't know what to do without them!!

20 lb's gone

2006-08-07T09:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah...20 pounds gone forever :) I really had lost hope that I would start losing...now I can't wait....hehe I get so impatient and get all my clothes out and can't wait till I can get into them...

even though I have a long way to go its nice to know that i can do it....and that eventually I will lose this weight and be healthy again!!
plus my sugar levels have stabalized so I am not shaky, and I don't crave sugar anymore!! yeah...its so great....

now 60 more pounds to go LOL hehe :)

Tired.......

2006-07-19T15:17:00.000-07:00

I am so tired today.....that deep bone tired that drags you to the floor!! I am tired of struggling with bills, and not seeing my husband because he is working 60+ hours. I am tired of not being able to have the energy to do my house work, or play with my kids.....its that deep emotional tired that you have a hard time shaking.

A year ago this month is the month I got sick...in aug 05 they found my pre cancerous condition and then started the hardest 6 months of my life.....4 surgeries(and 75lbs) later you would think I would be starting to get better. and then they told me I have epstein barr virus...which doesn't go away...it stays with you and flares up all the time!! they told me to avoid stress...Oh okay...I will just wrap myself in my little cocoon and be happy....LOl because it is so easy to avoid stress with three kids and a working husband and hospital bills and such........

Ok I am overly negative today...I should probably call it quits....and try again tomorrow

only good thing is the weight is starting to SLOWLY come off....:) I should try and focus on that ..........

what kind of shoe am I?

2006-07-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

You are Barefoot!

You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl

You can't be restricted by shoes for very long

And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men

Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

2006-07-07T21:09:00.000-07:00

My children...My joy!

These are two of my reasons for living. everyday I look at these two beautifull faces and know I have a reason to continue.

Wade is 6 years old and as smart as a wip, top of his kindergarted class reading at a second grade level...He never stops talking LOL always asking question after question....his mind is never at a stop :)

Emma is 2 and beautiful. she came into our life as a foster child at 10 months, and then became our daughter. she is stubborn, thoughtfull and full of life. she came from a rough start and has over come much!!

together they are rascals, but I love them dearly!

This is our new foster baby...Trenton. he is 13 months . what a joyfull, curious boy he is. full of smiles and talking. we have had him for 2 weeks, and he already feels like part of the family. We don't know how long he will be in our lives, but we hope what time we have with him, will fill him with love and peace!